I read something a Youtube friend wrote and it got me really thinking.
Back in August 2010 Skyler and I decided to we needed to start going to Church. We were doing really well. Going like we should, The kids and I got baptized. I started to have the relationship I wanted to have with God. The last year has really changed that. Life changed so much, bad things started coming out and we worked through it. But it opened up old wounds for me. I noticed I became more bitter and angry again. I started becoming who I used to be, the person I don't want to be.
After realizing this I took a step back. I am still stepping back and reevaluating my life and who I want to be. I know I no longer want to be angry, sad, bitter, mean, foul mouthed, negative, and lazy. I want to be happy. I want to be positive, a role model, a good Mom, a good Wife, I want to be the person God wants me to be. I need to find who I am meant to be. This is only day one and it has been so hard to step back, count to 10 and pray for patients. I have caught myself a few times and stopped myself. The thing is this my kids and Skyler have also been living this sad negative life. The first step was to get Skyler on board. I was so scared for some reason. But I found out he agreed with me, He thinks we need to change too. So now we need to work with our kids and basically reteach them about life and how to act. They are good kids who have had bad guidance.
This next year is going to change us a lot. We have so much that we need to work on but I am committed to this. Be the change you want to see. We also need to learn to manage our Money better. So yeah. This is going to be hard to break old habits and learn new ones on top of teaching news ones. But I know I have my Husband behind me and he is on board. Together we can conquer this. The Dowdy fab five are on a mission!
Before you judge people for being happy, think. They aren't being fake, they are being positive. Don't be down on them for that. They are still people. THEY DO HAVE PROBLEMS IN LIFE, they are just choosing to focus on the positive. Do you know how hard that is? It isn't easy! You have a bad day, what do you want to do? VENT! But positive people find that one thing in there day that made them happy. Maybe they had an awesome taco, or saw a beautiful rainbow, of their husband picked up his own socks. They choose to focus on that thing. They may have had a horrible day, but hey! They are alive! That is where I want to be in life. I have called these people fake myself. But I never sopped to think about it. Unless they say everything in my life is always perfect 24/7 I never have any problems or worries, they aren't being fake! They are being positive. God wants me positive and thankful. From here on out, that is what I vow to do.
Alright, this has me in tears for several reasons. First, it is beutifully writen and very heartfelt. Secound because I am a beliver in Jesus (well you said God and I assume you mean Jesus, we can discuss:P ) and I haven't even asked you if you believe. I hesitate until I get to know someone because you have to be careful not to scare someone off...it would have come out eventualy. Also, because I am getting to know you and already think your such a sweet person, it is nice to see this side of you. I am nothing special but I hope to be a good role model for you and am here for you anytime you need me. I am a christian and run my business as so because I can't be a success in my mission to help other people with their confidence, if I don't have Jesus in it. I am so proud that you have started this.I really enjoyed reading it and I will be praying for your family and am here to help in any way. THANKS FOR SHARING THIS AND MAKING MY DAY. It was not an easy day today but this brings some happiness to me. PLUS you wrote it on my bday, yeah for a bday "present". You will find lots of obstacles as you head on this path but keep your focus and I promise, it will CHANGE YOUR LIFE!!!!
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